Hi dear friends.
I shall update this forgotten-poor blog now since I don't touch it since January.
First thing of all I will talk about the treatment I did in that clinic. This is mainly for Acacia, Adam and Jasper. Yeah you people because we don't talk for centuries and I am missing you three so badly. Please send me an email telling me how is going your life in college!!
Well returning to the issue. The initial treatment was a failure because my body rejected the pace maker so the doctors used a new procedure. I won't explain it because it is really complicated and I am not into mood to think a lot.
The matter is I am OK now.

When I was in Germany I met up with Adele and Jaymes. it is a waste Jasmine is studying abroad and Gilbert was visiting his grandparents in countryside.
I know Rui I can send you an e-mail, but sometimes it is really better to write it in a type of-journal-thing. Thanks for taking care of things while I was sick.

Talking about the present.

Today I am sick...fever only. Nothing important.
I wanted to talk about various issues, but first... Talk about the most important person in the world (to me)

Sara... I know I should be asleep but I woke up a while ago and I am not sleepy at all and I am writing because of that. Let me tell you something I can't tell you by voice... When Pedro was there with you, in your home I felt a little jealous. It doesn't hurt at all, but sometimes I wish I could be the one with you, be the one accepted by your parents. Please don't cry... I just want to be true to you. Pedro is the one you love...I know it. Earlier or later I will end up being stronger. I will overcome this...Now that I was discharged from the clinic I am trying to be happy again...like I was before. Do you remember what I always said? "My life is not perfect. The person I love does not love me...but in general I am happy"
I will be like that once again, and in that time I'm sure we will be good friends. I know lately I am always hurting you but when I was alone in the bed at the clinic I really remembered how I wished to know my mom and dad... I remembered how much I love you. How much I want you to be happy... or simply happier.
Please...Live

Pedro...take good care of her. go ahead with the excelent work you are doing...because in the end you are doing a better job than I did.

Marina, dear... tomorrow we will talk. Remember only: I really like you. you are my friend, my dear friend and nothing in this world will change it.

For now bye dear friends
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MESSAGES

Chika-chan, Chou-chan *smile* I received your email and I will pick you both at 2pm, next week, Sunday at Eustan Train Station . I am waiting eagerly to meet up with you girls (^^) David cleaned one of the guests rooms so, yeah, you can't stay here at my home.

Maggie-chan, I did not forgot you. I would like you to send me an email telling me how are you doing. Sara told me you sent me one another day but I didn't receive it... Kisses, dear.

Layla and John Marcus. I can't go to Cornwall Thursday... Sorry guys but I have work to do. we can schedule other day if you wish so. Tell me something.

To all others I hope you all are fine... I like you all really much. Remember that

And... mom, dad and Jacob-grandfather, Elizabeth-grandmother, Tomás-grandfather and Idalina-grandmother; despite I don't believe in Heaven or Hell or something after death I am hoping you all to be happy and proud of the man I become

Hi folks!
I only wanted to say "Hi" to everyone because since I'm still in the clinic.
I'm better though'

Sara, dear... I know I call you everyday but I want it to be write: please live... Pedro is taking a good care of you. And I am truly thankful to him because of that. Yet, despite all, you still my main reason to be alive.

Marina... We need really to talk. You are depressed and...it is my fault. Sorry for make you suffer so much. If one day you don't want to talk more to me, I'll understand. Really. I'm sorry...

Pedro... I was talking to you awhile, so in this moment I have not much to say to you. Only what i said already: Take Care of you and of Sara.

Margarida, cutie, are you OK? I would like you to send me an email telling me how is your life going.

Layla! Love of my life :) how are ya? I will ask you the same thing I asked Margarida. Becaise The last time you told me something was in November! So I need to know how is your life,

All my other friends... I'be been calling you all at least one time per 2 weeks. but to be registered: I love you all.

For now, I will say goodbye. Because the nurse that is in the other room is noisy and she is almost killing me to go to bed.

Hello people!
I know I was missing a lot this time but I was drowning in papers. Sorry!
If you ask me how I've been I couldn't answer too well. I guess I am fine and at the same time I can rest in peace at night.
After this time I am in England, because she asked me to come back... She told me she didn't want me to worry about her. It hurts, but I can't do anything...

People don't understand why she is the only true weak point I have. Maybe because she was the only person who never seemed to admire me or other things. She said once that she didn't think I was different.
When I met her she said 'You are You! and that's all the matter!' After that I couldn't avoid to be in love with her.

Now I see her... She is not really different from before, only that she rely less on others. She thinks she need to protect others and don't care at all about herself.

I see her brushing her short light brown, in the bathroom next to my old room in Coimbra. Brushing softly trying to avoid looking to the mirror... Many persons could find her not really actractive but to me she is the most beautiful girl in all world.
I can remind her little body when I holded her; when she was sleeping silently by my side, when I touched her... I only wanted to take care of you.

The same now. When I watched you brushing your long black-died hair.
Sara, sometimes I know this blog looks like dedicated to you, and it isn't...but what I can do when you are my biggest weakness? The only person who can make me feel really stressed and feel lost. You are the only person who can make me doubt about reality... I am a rational person but with you I am...not different, but more like a person.
You and I are what people call 'cold'; without feelings. But we know, I know, we aren't.

Watching you holding a plush doll...
The smell of your body. Has everyone noticed that you are always smelling good? Maybe because I love you so much I notice every little change you have.

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My work is getting a little harder and now that I am busy I won't have much time to care about giving news. Remember people, if something happens again, like the accident I had I'll make sure to everyone know about it.
I like every friends I have...

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My Portuguese friends: Marina, Maggie, Pedro (I didn't forgot you because, despite you don't want my friendship I will answer if you need me sometime), Pedro - Maggie's boyfriend (if you want to talk send me an e-mail, I'll make sure to answer), Rui, Cristina, Patricia, Carolina - Sara's cousin, and my new friend Joana...

My British friends: Layla, Sandy, John Marcus, John Sandler, Joshua and finally Mathew.

My American friends: Nancy Martin, Rebecca, Daniel, Paul, Christine, and the siblings - Acacia, Adam and Jasper.

My German friends: Jasmine, Jaymes, Adele and Gilbert

My Japanese friends: Atsuko-san, Sakurada Chiyo-chan, the twins Miyamoto Chika-chan and Chou-chan, Hideki-kun, Daichi-kun, Manami Kaoru-san and Osamu Sai-san.

Mother, Father, Jacob-grandfater, Elizabeth-grandmother, Tomás-grandfater and Idalina-grandmother

Sara....

To all of you... I hope you are fine today, and sorry...today I am a little more emotional than usal.
I love you all...

specially

Yesterday one of my patients commited suicide...
Michael was a 7years little boy... No one knows what happened since Michael never showed a suicidal behavior
Ah Michael...

My first failure I guess...

Sara... would you do the same thing smiling?
When you smile, I try to remember to not trust on that. I know... but I can't remember you are thinking "I can't rely on them..."

Usually I know what I need to say.

Just with her I am not so rational.

Joshua, please help me

Labels: life

There are times when we can achieve everything
yet there are times when we can achieve nothing.

Albert Einstein said once: "It is high time the ideal of success should be replaced with the ideal of service ... Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile."

And I take my job with this idea on my mind. Because when I see others smiling all my life until now starts to make some sense. I want to turn other people's life better. A nation only can change if every person that belongs to it, change first. To the happiness of on nation everyone needs to be happy first, and although this isn't really possible, every step is useful.

With Sara these feelings are really different. I don't thing about this when I am with her. It is just like 'I must to preoctect her', 'I need to see her smile'! Maybe many persons wouldn't understand this.
I can remember her when I met her, how she was little, cute and shy.
her light brown hair, her almost-crying eyes that anyone else seemed to notice... Was I the only one who noticed that she was always suffering? Was I the only one who could really see how she was?
She lied many times only to protect others... The same when she was drugged, and I wasn't there to protect her. She told her friends she got drunk...
And when she would tell her mom and dad, she was the one who messed up, to cover her sister.
She never seemed to trust or rely on others... She would keep it all to herself.
So the only thing I can think when I am with her is 'I must make her smile...'

Labels: albert einstein, burden, friends, happiness, heart, love, quote

And...3,2,1...

Hello Everyone!
My name is Andrew Harrington and I am an almost 22 years old man.
Because this is my first post I do only an introduction.
I am half-portuguese and half-britsih. So how people call me depends on the country I am living into. In Portugal (because of the stupid nationalist things) my name is André Filipe. My British complete name is Andrew Philip Jesus Mello Christopher Harrington.
(so many words to tell my identity...)

I was born in 25.12.1986 so I am still 21 years old now.

About my family: My parents died during a fire, when I was 3years old so I can't remember them very well.
My mother was Portuguese. Her name was Sara, and she had black long hair, and her eyes were ocean-blue. She was 26 years old when she died.
My dad's name was Nicholas, and he was British. He was blond like me and his eyes were green.
He was 32 when he died.

And because of them I can't define my eyes' color very well, because it depends on the day.

After the death of my parents I lived with my British grandparents, until I was 15 years old.
Then I traveled to Portugal with my grandmother to know the country where my mom lived.
While I was there I met her...

When I came back to London, England my grandfather had already died.
My grandmother died last year.

About the actual me: I am a Intellectual giftedness person, so now I work as a psychiatrist and psychologist. Although I am a little over skilled I really don't care a lot about it.

I am not a very social person, and I really love calm places. I have a person I love, and she was the one I met when I was in Portugal. I was 17 years old and she was 12. She is the only person I loved until then, and who I love until now.

My interests are philosophy, psychology, theology, chemistry, history, mathematics, medicine, children, food, music, movies and anime.

My hobbies are to study, to write, to read, to draw and paint, to play the piano or the violin, to do some weird experiments, to watch old movies and to list to music... oh, and... to eat!

I am a weird person and I am proud of it! =)

Take care everyone!

Labels: childhood, dislikes, facts, girlfriend, interpretations, life, likes, love, parents

Me*

Don't you believe in flying saucers, they ask me? Don't you believe in telepathy? — in ancient astronauts? — in the Bermuda triangle? — in life after death?
No, I reply. No, no, no, no, and again no.
One person recently, goaded into desperation by the litany of unrelieved negation, burst out "Don't you believe in anything?"
"Yes", I said. "I believe in evidence. I believe in observation, measurement, and reasoning, confirmed by independent observers. I'll believe anything, no matter how wild and ridiculous, if there is evidence for it. The wilder and more ridiculous something is, however, the firmer and more solid the evidence will have to be." Isaac Asimov

Identity*

Name: Andrew Philip Harrington
Age: (25.12.1986)
Location: England

Cares*

In Love: Yes
Interests: Mytholody, literature, Philosophy, Psychology, History, Mathematics, Cinema, Music, Anime, Culture, Food
Hates: Watching people suffer

Chat*

Contacts*

Sara’s blog
Maggie’s blog
Marina’s blog
Ana Rita’s blog
Sara’s deviantart account